Fixing Myself to Wreck Myself

I was thinking about the last two surgeries that I can have in my life. I haven't had them yet because my parents and my doctors have left the choice to have them or not up to me. Now these least two surgeries would be to fix my knees and then my hips so they would be straight. I haven't really thought much about these surgeries in the past because I was young and told it would be very painful. But now that I have gotten older, I am thinking about it more and more because of how it would make me feel. But is fixing these last two things going to mess with my mind? I feel like if I got these two surgeries and then met some guy I would always wonder. Would he still have dated me if I hadn't had those surgeries? Would he still find me attractive with bent knees and bent hips? All I know is that I have plenty of time to process these thoughts and if he would not have dated me, I guess  I would never know.